Sunday, February 27, 2011

Well said...

I know we've all heard this but, I love it...and it's my I'm posting it. :)

"Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate.
Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.
It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us.
We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant,
gorgeous, talented, fabulous?
...Actually, who are you not to be?
You are a child of God.
Your playing small does not serve the world.
There is nothing enlightened about shrinking
so that other people won't feel insecure around you.
We are all meant to shine, as children do.
We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us.
It is not just in some of us; it is in everyone.
And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously
give other people permission to do the same.
As we are liberated from our own fear,
our presence automatically liberates others."

Nelson Mandela

Thursday, February 17, 2011

Posting something Happy...

So I feel like I haven't posted anything Happy lately. you go. :)

Tuesday, February 15, 2011


ps...I just realized that my past couple posts were really negative. Sorry about that. I promise my life isn't really that awful right now, just a little crazy. All is well over all. :)

Bad form

For the most part, I don't need people to love everything I do on the piano. It's part of the music world...and I like to think I have enough of a thick skin to get by most of the time (granted, we're all human). But, if you take issue with my playing, you damn well better be willing to say it to my face...and not to a student, behind my back...while I'm sitting close enough to possibly hear. Bad form. Enough said.

Thursday, February 10, 2011


Please know...this is probably an irrational rant. And I'm probably wrong in every sense. Totally realize that. you go.
I was scheduled to play a lesson for a violinist. Her teacher shall remain nameless but , he is a prominent violinist in SLC, and possibly one of the nicest people I have met. Anyway, said lesson was on a Monday afternoon. I was given very late notice that I had to be at Westminster earlier than usual. I immediately contacted the violinist, let her know that due to late notice, I couldn't be at her lesson, and that I would love to reschedule. (Insert: I know it's a pain to schedule lessons and rehearsals, and I try my bestest to be everywhere I need to be, when I need to be there.) The violinist responded that she would let me know when we could reschedule. ANYWAY...I received a voicemail from her teacher tonight. Basically, he chastised me for needing to cancel the lesson, talked up how difficult her program is (like I don't know that...I've spent hours learning it for heavens sake), how we need to meet every possible lesson, and that if I needed to cancel in the future, I should contact him so we can "discuss" the matter.
I know it's not a big deal, really. And I know, that I shouldn't have canceled, but I couldn't find a way around it. Totally my fault...but said message was totally unnecessary. If Jeffrey, or Melissa, or Chris was playing this recital, he never would have dreamed of saying anything. Maybe I'm just done with people treating me like I'm still a student, or that it's ok to take every free second of my life and not think twice about it, or that they're just needing me because there's not anyone better available because I really don't have any skill at what I do anyway. I promise I'm not saying that I know everything, and I am definitely not God's gift to the accompanying world. I know I'm the bottom of the totem pole and that I will always have more to learn until the day I leave this blessed existence. But is it too much to ask to be treated well?

By the way, none of this is directed in any way to anyone who might read this blog and is currently working with me. And really, I know I'm over reacting...and that I'm totally wrong and assuming things...really. Just thought I would rant for a bit. If you made it this far...thanks for reading. :)

Wednesday, February 9, 2011

The Hiding Place--best book ever

"When you and I go to Amsterdam, when do I give you your ticket?"
"Why, just before we get on the train."
"Exactly. And our wise Father in Heaven knows when we're going to need things. Don't run ahead of him Corrie. When the time comes that some of us have to die, you will look into your heart and find the strength you need--just in time."

Thursday, February 3, 2011

Pipes thawed!!!! Doesn't seem to be any leaking yet!!! Yay for water!!!

Still stupid

My pipes are still frozen. No hot water and no water in the kitchen at all. One more day of running space heaters all day. Anyone want to take bets on my power bill this month? And to tell you the truth, I am very glad nothing has broken yet...really, I am. But for heavens sake, thaw already!!! This is getting really old!!!

Oh, and ps...I did everything right. Cupboards open, heat up, ran a drip, and they still froze. Apparently I need to run a drip in ALL my faucets next time. Grrrr.